#I just want an okay work life
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chessalein Ā· 1 year ago
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First day back to work after vacation. It feels as if I go back to hell.
As if the time before the vacation was a internship you just try to pull through and vacation was the time when it's over.
But now I have to go back. This night was the longest I ever had. Waking up so often, getting stressed out that my alarm goes off every second and that I have to go there.
I really need something new. I don't want this to be my life.
Sadly my mental state and my problems don't seem to fit any job that is out there. I'm gonna go and try to apply for a librarian, maybe that's something for me.
No deadlines, no 600 costumers a day, half time... Maybe that's my thing. And on the side I try my own thing. Commissions and stuff.
I'm just really afraid that the money won't be enough...
I really wish I had a more normal brain so I could do more regular jobs and just be okay with it. I don't need to love my job. I just don't want a panic attack when I think about it. Or almost cry when I have to go to bed or when the alarm goes off.
I'm sorry for this rant/vent I'm just really nervous and scared right now because I have to get ready and my body just says "no" in all the ways there is. There will be so much stress again, so much fear. And I will have to take actions soon but doesn't matter what I do it's wrong and that stresses me out even more.
I could just quit but then I'm without money, they will ask me soon to take on more work and I don't wanna be there. I would have to say that I don't want this work and then I have to quit. I won't find a new job in a month. My bf will be mad at me because I told them and had to quit. But I don't want to lie to them because they have been really nice to me even with my problems.
I sit here and wonder if this is what my life is all about. Somehow trying to survive at a job and not to get a meltdown because it's too much for me.
I have the feeling I don't have a place in this world and it bothers me. I wanna be part of it, but it feels like every job is one that would crush my psyche.
I wish Video rent stores were still around, the sound good as a job. I could draw my commissions and stuff while no costumer is there.
I have to go now. Throwing down some calming-down Medizin and off we go.
Sorry for the rant again. I'm really just a wreck right now.
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chalkrub Ā· 3 months ago
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saw some mangy dog on the outskirts of town
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uncanny-tranny Ā· 1 year ago
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I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.
It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.
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blackkatdraws2 Ā· 8 months ago
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There are more things in the Parable than Stanley knows about. [Blank Scripts AU]
#hoh boy i was going to make a comic to introduce these monsters but#i couldnt help myself and made an animation instead#because i just think they're so neat and cool okay#listen i cant for the life of me just infofump about my AU and OCs#because i just think that making actual content about my lore and stuff will not only raise the chances of people being interested#but also it will also raise my motivation to actually produce more content other than the same old recycled front-facing-profile drawings#i need to get creative with my stuff or I'll also loose interest and I DONT want that#in order to be happy with what i have i cant just think about it and expect to be given something new NOOOO i need to MAKE it ughh#i cant believe in order to get more content out of my own au i would need to draw it and feed myself ugh ugh ugh unbelievable (kidding)#but also#i wanna make a little music video or animation again for youtube#its been a hot while since ive uploaded anything in there at all#maybe an animation reel will do for now?#i hope so :(#because ive been working on expanding the Black Scripts AU#and honestly i dont regret it#i had a lot of fun making up scenarios and comics for Stanley and the Narrator (Black)#but yeah!#apart from this little video#you wont be getting an explanation on what these things are supposed to be#and why theyre there#actually i was originally gonna make this into a full fledge animation with sound effect/music/frame-by-frame movement/etc.#but i got lazy HAHA#tsp blank scripts au#tsp au#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#tsp
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trchrswtrs Ā· 11 days ago
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I had a dream about Sebek and a fly.
Sebek was going about his normal business, when he noticed a fly sitting on his hand. He casually brushed the fly off, before lifting his gaze to resume his duties. However, out of the corner of his vision, he caught sight of the fly, back on his hand. He swatted at it again. But somehow, it remained where it was. He shook his hand, twisted it about, swiped at it multiple times but no matter how hard he tried to get rid of it, the fly remained on his hand. Growing increasingly frustrated, he even tried to crush the fly in his hand. But the fly still remained. He couldn't help but let out a cry of anger and upset as tears began to stream down his face, for he was desperate to be rid of this fly. This fly that would not release its hold on him. This fly that clung to the back of his mind every second of the day. And there was nothing he could do but despair.
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territorial-utopia Ā· 4 months ago
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Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)
Sure has been a year.
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mossy-paws Ā· 25 days ago
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Get in the fucking biograft, Shuriken. (EVANGELION/PHIGHTING!)
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(og screenshotā€™s/cover under text!) Why hello there to my tumblr followers, itā€™s been a awhile /silly
ANYWAYS!!! Guess who recently finished the EVA franchise minus the rebuilds and has been in a horrible chokehold over it, this anime ruined my life but hey at least its intro theme is niceā€¦ā€¦
Well, I wanted to draw some stuff for it! All together these pieces took exactly 48 hours and 20 minutesā€¦ with the cover-piece taking ~35(?) of those hours. These wereā€¦ very, VERY time costly safe to say LOL,,, I am super, SUPER proud of how the cover came out though, everything on it was drawn, colored, rendered, edited, whatever, BY HAND stroke by stroke (as you can see below)
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The text, the lineart, the shadows, the colors, the snowflakes on the bio and Shuri, EVERYTHING was done by hand, it was horribly time costly but it did come out very, VERY well in the end I would say (fun fact! I also didnā€™t originally have the textless version of the cover, and I had to trace all of the lineart for bioā€™s tophalf by just guessing what line when where and what the hell was going on /silly)
this was a very, very hard project to do all together, but it was also a really nice learning experience too, Iā€™m happy i did it thatā€™s for sure :3!
(og screenies + cover)
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stevieharringtonwifeguy Ā· 4 months ago
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ovulation being a hell of a drug that ends up getting steddie together like
eddie and queen bee stevie harrington who have a weird kind of friendship where they share like. Everything. not a single secret between them. like eddie's got stevie's cycle pretty much memorised and she knows about every inappropriately timed boner he's ever had. and they're talking one day, smoking, shooting the shit, and there's a second of silence before stevie's like. oh my god. im so horny im gonna die. and eddie's like huh what. and stevie goes like there's a stain on your wall that's kind of shaped like a sperm and that made me think about cum and now im all bricked up. my vaginas haunted. fucking sperm shaped stain.
and eddie's like. wait girls- ok you know what im saying this in my head and im realising this sounds dumb but like. i thought girls didn't like. Get Like That. like i thought random horniness at a stiff breeze was a guy thing
and stevie snorts like nope girls get it too we just get to hide it bc we don't get boners. swear to god there's like a week of every month where i get fucking possessed or some shit. robin says it's like a period thing
but you're not on your period?
and stevie's like no it's like. the opposite of a period. like your period is your uterus being like hey you fucked up you're not pregnant but Horny Week is your uterus being like okay im ready let's get a baby in there time to get pregnant you know what to do. it's called like. oval. something. oval something. im all fertile and my body's trying to trick me, the fuckn prick.
and eddie just kinda goes huh and then there's another second of silence where he tries very hard not to think about stevie being pregnant. and then stevie throws her arms up with a frustrated sigh like god DAMN it now im thinking about being pregnant and eddie's internally like well at least it's not just me
and anyway another joint later this obviously devolves into stevie shoving eddie's hand down her pants and telling him please it'll be so quick he doesn't even have to do anything and she just ruts against his hand while he stares at her bc he's so high and the girl he's basically in love with just told him how fertile she was and then started rubbing her incredibly wet pussy against his hand and he feels like he might pass out
they do this and more about once a month for like a year until stevie does actually get pregnant. her stupid uterus successfully tricked her šŸ˜”āœŠ
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icewindandboringhorror Ā· 3 months ago
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I made a few new wax seal stamps out of clay (like the ones I did for my worldbuilding stuff forever ago), this time just of random symbols that I thought might look good done in the style of painting over the raised part of the wax or etc. :0c Some of them aren't carved deep enough to really show up that well, but overall they worked okay for being clay lol
#wax seal#crafts#wax stamp#stationery#Window one is kind of stinky.. I was imagining like a swirly night sky sort of looking thing so it would be a surreal contrast of a night#sky with a window in the middle that shows a daytime sky - but the silver and purple wax kind of mixed too much together#with the black and it just looks very plain black and not all that starry or anything hjbhj.. Of course the eye is probably my favorite#since all I ever do is draw eyes and still like eye imagery for some reason. The four leaf clover is very lumpy and skrunkty but also it wa#the smallest in size out of all of them so was easier to do multiple stamps of just to try it out.#The heart with eyes wax is actually more swirly in person. I wanted it to be a mix of light pink and red and white. and the wax#did kind of all blend together but in person you can definitely see MORE of the intentional swirlyness. in this it just looks plain pink.#I was going to do one eye in the heart but it looked weird. but now two seems too plain. i could have done 3?? in a pattern.. hmm#alas. I wish I could make actual metal ones. With the clay i have to paint them in a thin layer of olive oil before stamping because#otherwise the wax just kind of gets stuck in the grooves of the clay and then you can't pull it up. Very wacky ''unprofessional'' looking#set up where I'm hot gluing circles of sculpey clay to short stumps of a wooden dowel that I sawed apart with a serrated bread knife#and then using an old paintbrush to put olive oil on them whilst holding a spoon over a yankee candle flame hjbjh#ANYWAY.. I think if I were middle class/rich/etc. this would be one of the main things in my crafting room is like.. SO many colors#of wax. and all different custom made stamps designed by me. which could be much more elaborate in actual metal.. muahaha.... >:)c#RHGghhh... I actually don't want to talk much about it since (this is probably just my Obsessed With My Own World Artist Delusions) I#think I have a really cool idea for a game that could genuinely be successful if i ever get to make it and I don't want to give#everything away and spoil the whole plot/concept in hopes that one day I can actually do it - BUT - a game that I'd like to make after the#visual novel I'm making now has partially to do with the main character working as a sort of writer/scribe/artist assistant in an elven#city (set in my world/with my worldbuilding species and versions of elves and etc) and I was thinking of maybe incorporating#somehow being able to collect little writing type items like these like.. you can get different wax seal patterns or pens or etc. when I do#stuff like this in Real Life it always makes me think of that like.. ouh... this is good research.. what it shall be like to be a littol#elf collecting wax seals and such.. indeed... GRR i need to be finished with my current game NOWWW... i MUST work on other#thingss... aughh... ANYWAY.. yay. accomplishment to do One Single Thing other than Sit In The Summer Heat And Rot#though also hilarious as this was the first cool-ish day that was below 80F in a while hgvh#waking up like 'wow.. i actually feel okay today?? like I could do things?? how mysterious.. I wonder why..?? :0'' Its The Weather You Fool#Tis Always The Weather
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clairedaring Ā· 7 months ago
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Ming + being proactive in getting to know Joe and his works
MY STAND-IN (2024) | 1.03
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localgardenweed Ā· 5 months ago
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They are taking over
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cantagirldrawinpeace Ā· 7 months ago
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Mf with academic validation issues who grew up in an emotionally neglectful family gets 1 compliment once
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Save my boy Deuce šŸ©µšŸ©µšŸ©µ
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fumifooms Ā· 3 months ago
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Dungeon lord Chilchuck
What would his wish as a dungeon lord be? What would he be like? Headcanons & speculation post for fun. But Iā€™ll start with analytic lead up because thatā€™s always fun for me, though feel free to skip and skim.
When it comes to what Chilchuckā€™s dungeon lord desires could/would be like we have mainly 3 hints: His nightmare, his succubus and what the winged lion says to him.
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Why: ā€” From what we see nightmares are based on the personā€™s worst fears and insecurities, both Laiosā€™ and Marcilleā€™s nightmare were closely tied to their dungeon lord wishes (Laiosā€™ dream monster being summoned to crush the ghosts of relationships that represented the pressure to fit in and belong, Marcille seeking control over death and aging through magic to avoid loss), the fuel behind their desire/goal if you will. Fear and deep-seated desires are seemingly closely tied, something also supported by Thistle and Mithrunā€™s reigns as dungeon lords (Thistle proving his worth through fulfilling his given duty + protecting his loved ones, being listened to instead of having to listen, Mithrun escaping rigid two-faced elven society and living in a wonderland where he has no enemies and heā€™s loved, free from everyone he knew yet propped up by the person symbolizing his brother being chosen over him, the bastard child).
ā€” Iā€™ve talked about the significance I assign to the succubi often by now, but rundown: What we see of each character is all very telling if you care to listen, it shows not only someoneā€™s "ideal form" but what they want from it. Izutsumiā€™s is familial, offering a hug and comfort, Marcilleā€™s is romantic with a character she knows and loves, offering a kiss on a hand and a connection regardless of how distant it actually is, and Laiosā€™ is platonic, arguable at first but then Laiosā€™ fear of judgement is placated and he is offered the picture perfect friend group that accepts his interest (if you want my full look at Laiosā€™ succubus go here). They take on the most alluring form, most ideal person of their victim, even uncovering deep subconscious desires, so precisely and effectively to the point it leaves victims physically frozen before the object of their desire. Succubi and the demon are themselves tied in lore and itā€™s easy to see how similar their core skill are. Succubi donā€™t give a good idea of what a character would wish for on their own but they certainly give hints on what they crave, regardless of how you want to read it.
ā€” Last bit is self-explanatory. To placate Chilchuck and win his compliance over, the monster that reads your soul like an open book offers to give him something specific. But! Itā€™s also important to remember that the lion isnā€™t offering to fulfill Chilchuckā€™s dream world wish here, itā€™s a second prize, because his goal with what he promised Laios is that theyā€™d stay in this world, away from everyone and everything else. Chilchuck wants to get away but is kept back, and itā€™s here the lion placates him with "hey itā€™s okay! You canā€™t do that but I can still give you this! This is enough right? Itā€™ll make everything easier on you".
What each bit says: ā€” Long version in another post. Tldlr: His daughters and family are obviously important to him, and this reinforces that he takes on the role of protector a lot, heā€™s constantly worried for his party membersā€™ lives and implicitly his familyā€™s. Safety and stability, both economical and otherwise, are his core values and goals, and he berates both others and himself if someone fails on those fronts. Here, thereā€™s the fear of not being enough, of not having been able to protect, and of course of loss.
ā€” Chilā€™s succubi are obviously sexual, and not only that but agressively and straightforwardly so. Itā€™s not like Marcilleā€™s where thereā€™s personality involved, all they do is give him sultry looks and pretty smiles before jumping on him. His succubi arenā€™t like Izutsumiā€™s, always the same exact person and appearance, so itā€™s not someone but an appealing general idea. The idea of a sexual being he can regard as simply a gorgeous piece of meat and a good time no strings attached. In my interpretation, especially with my reading of Laiosā€™ succubus where even with deep-seated desires negative emotions can be too intense to effectively freeze a victim, I think this doesnā€™t contradict his character. Relationships have been painful to him in the past, in the succubus scene when his wife gets mentioned his immediate reaction is to yell "Donā€™t bring her up now!", like with his habit of drinking and as a tallman liking his senses feeling dulled, itā€™s about not having to feel emotions with how difficult they are to deal with sometimes and just feeling good, or at least not having to think, for a while. If a succubus showcases someoneā€™s ideal connection with an ideal person, then Chilchuckā€™s is with a pretty person that doesnā€™t stir any negative memory or drama, someone low stakes and low maintenance that doesnā€™t require him to manage or talk out feelings because thereā€™s none involved in the first place.
ā€” Once more, wife and family are important! He does long for his family, not only his wife but his daughters, and vice versa. This suggests not only that he wants good relationships with them but that he wants them to be with him, a family life. Far from the cut communication they all more of less have during canon, and perhaps far from their life pre-canon when he worked away from home a significant amount of time. Weā€™ve seen recreations of people by the winged lion before with doppelgangers and monsters (naga), and though he claims he can make satisfying imitations, what weā€™ve seen is that they base themselves on the best memories of that person, like with Marcilleā€™s dad, or twist behavior to be more pleasant, like Mithrunā€™s lover (and possibly twist appearances depending on the personā€™s view of them, but thatā€™s Mithrun analysis). The line does suggest Chilchuck would want his family members as they are in reality and not idealized versions, but the circumstances are chaotic and urgent enough in the scene (and again the lion isnā€™t fulfilling Chilchuckā€™s wish but trying to make him content for Laiosā€™) that it could just be the winged lion saying what he needs to to convince him the fastest possible, and like we see with Laios that can crumble to give way to deeper or more complex desires.
On top of that we just have general info on Chil. How does Chilchuck deal w his issues? What does he like to do? He likes alcohol and ignoring his problems. We have to remember there is a split between what someone would consciously wish for and what their soul uncontrollably irrationally craves. As always with Dunmeshi, thereā€™s a narrative of irrational deep-seated desires vs active wants, what you crave vs what you strive for, what you dream of vs whatā€™s actually good for you, the animal vs the human inside you, heart vs mind. Chilchuck craving a harem of hot babes in his fantasies but wanting his family life & wife back again is not mutually exclusive. You may crave becoming a monster and tasting what humans are like a little but still want to save the world & your friends more.
Btw can we adress the irony of him terrified of being the last one alive, of being left by his daughters and wife, of having left and coming back home one day to see everything gone or rampaged, yet not caring about dying of liver failure himself, knowing every time that he enters a dungeon thereā€™s a real risk he may not come out. Die somewhere I canā€™t see you. I prefer leaving you than being left behind. Heā€™s selfish and shortsighted like thatā€¦ Chilchuck is selfless in many ways of course, but perhaps also due to his own relationship with his parents, he often undermines the effects he has on others in his relationships, both the good and the bad (he talks himself down about being cowardly and greedy yes, but never hints at his bad health habits, alcoholism and starving himself, may have affected his loved ones, doesnā€™t question his wife falling into a bad mood the night before she left, and talks about the possibility of dying here and there very casually, though obviously he tries his best to stay alive when it doesnā€™t concern his health).
Chilchuck king of "Let me just avoid and ignore my problems surely theyā€™ll go away, things might work out and if they donā€™t well tough luck Iā€™ll survive and I probably deserve it anyways". If I donā€™t look at it it will dissapear <3 Why care when you can simply not think about it.
You might not understand Mister "my love will stay strong through months of work travel and also 4 years of separation" and Mister "well idk my siblings and me are kinda strangers and my dad is dead but thatā€™s kinda whatever", but typically relationships need some form of maintenance and emotional availabilityā€¦
The actual headcanons finally
I kinda have 2 routes in mind for dunlord Chil and both of them are centered on "I care too much, i wish things were easy", so first is a lot like his succubi, itā€™s full on indulging in his guilty pleasures like alcohol and bodies and itā€™s to keep him in a constant state of thrill and euphoria and distracted, unfeeling about stuff that really matters. "Nothing matters except that Iā€™m enjoying the moment!" vibe. He gets to live a life worthy of Dionysus, with alcohol and women and debauchery and likeā€” never having to think again, never having to feel anything but pleasure again, never have to feel guilty or shitty or angry or sad. He has a harem and gets everything on a silver platter.
Breaking news demon magic-induced rush of euphoria and power still not enough to cure this man of his self-hatred nor his capacity for thought!! But in his case a state of euphoria is what he seeks I think, to kinda mask or replace the Everything Else.
The other is what I think closer to what canon suggests, with what WL implied too with "Iā€™ll make you a new wife and kids like the originals!!Ā šŸ˜Š", itā€™s a (spoilers) Wandavision type thing where itā€™s a slice of life where heā€™s never at work and always at home and the family eats lunches at the dinner table together and everything and everyone at any moment is just. Happy. No issues. It was all a dream, this is real and everything is fine and your family is perfect and happy. I like to think the timeline would be wonky, his daughters would fluctuate in age, but heā€™d want to be there for what he missed, would want them to still rely on him and look up to him like when they were young, would like to forget that theyā€™re now independent adults and the distance that grew between Chilchuck and his siblings is happening between them as well. Chil would want doppelgangers of his family imo, at its core just a general wish for a peaceful happy family life with no drama, no need to compromise, a little paradise of unconditional love and no consequences. Itā€™s for sure straightforward, but Chilchuck is a man with straightforward desiresā€¦
But see Chilchuck is a greedy man, and he wants it both ways without having to sacrifice anything or expanding any efforts himself. He wants to have his cake and eat it too. I think playing with these two opposite directions and mixing and matching is most fun. Him leading a life where he indulges in all his worst habits while still having everything he wantsā€¦ Him getting to have BOTH his wife and any woman he can imagine up, his life like two sides of a coin he can flip at any moment where heā€™s partying then heā€™s at home enjoying the quiet and his toddler daughters playing with toys on the carpet. Christ when you remember itā€™s all an illusion thatā€™s terrifying, the doppelgangers and succubi from the winged lion playing chilchuck ping pong.
A safe little haven both security-stability wise and emotionally. Gets to have both the relaxing and the thrilling in any dose he wants, mixed or separatedly. What Iā€™d argue he had pre-canon too: Can live it up in taverns away from home, stays away from home for long periods of time, and can come back to home aka the symbol of relaxation and safety whenever he decides to. Something he can leave and come back to at will, an anchor he can trust in (until itā€™s taken from him and his wife leaves. Or in his worse nightmare people rush in and kill his daughters). The ideal of a house and family to a working man, perhapsā€¦
I think itā€™s fun to think on wether or not these desires would be interesting at all to the winged lionā€¦ In canon he seeks out "rare/complex desires", common simple things like I imagine riches, sex, substances and pleasure would be are boring to him, heā€™s eaten those so many times already. So perhaps he wouldnā€™t last long as a dunlord, the WL would want to eat him fully quick, canā€™t keep him interested or waiting long for a meager meal, too much effort raising the cattle and too low quality meat. By making it more twisted or layered Chilā€™s desire would become more desirable to the demon, itā€™s part of whatā€™s fun with the third option to me. But whatever. Has he ever eaten a guy with this much repression and self-sabotage... Like trying to get the meat out of a walnut, enrichmentā€¦
Other dunlord Chil takes Iā€™ve seen that are fun and good:
@feelo-fick and @pluvio-floret have a dunlord Chilchuck AU project dubbed "tragedy AU" where Chilchuck is said to be "on vacation", in a weird delirious state, only half-there half of the timeā€¦ From which he doesnā€™t want to wake up </3 Quoting Feelo, this is why the vacation thing is only a half-joke cause he is 1) letting all his responsibilities go 2) indulging in himself and 3) "spending time with his family" <- lie but you get what i mean. Additional comments that have me vigorously nodding: because changing is hard why cant things just be okay right now without the effort !!! Life is hard heā€™s so so tired he just wants to feel goodā€¦ he just wants life to feel nice and easy for a sec while he can learn to breathe again and lose the stress and trauma heā€™s accumulatedā€¦ā€¦.. spoiler alert yes !!! in fact a depressed person can suck themselves into their job and lock out the world who wouldve thought !!!
And then Cabinette I know posted about his dunlord take once but I donā€™t have the link, in which Chil has a lot of nosebleeds because of mana overload which is fun and interesting to think about imo~
In dunmeshi, where characters get underground pockets of the world as their playground disconnected from everything outside and the rest of the world, itā€™s important to remember to face reality even if it has conflict and people with different views and stances from you, itā€™s something Chilchuck and Marcille and everyone needed to learn, and the thing with a dungeon lord AU is that you imagine a timeline where he fails to <3
A timeline where his dungeon lord wish is to desire nothing bc hope and want has only ever hurt him would also go so hard. Very universal thing though I suppose.
ā€¦ And this is why a Chilchuck-centric Coraline AU is really really interesting and fitting and topicalā€” Ok thatā€™ll go in a separate reblog/post at @Fumiku I need to let this end
#Dungeon meshi#chilchuck tims#Analysis#dungeon lord chilchuck#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Wish we could put just parts of a post under a ā€˜click to read moreā€™ box that scrolls open and closes neatly#Bc 3/4th of the post is just extra explanation for ppl who donā€™t See The Vision already but like thatā€™s not what i wanted most of the post#to be really gdbdg#Headcanons#You could say the family also represents something heā€™s built up with how own hands. If he has self-worth issues and thinks heā€™s a screw-up#in the virtue/honor and likability department especiallyā€” his family destroyed/killed also represents the one biggest good thing#heā€™s done/created crumbling also. Like his wife leaving without a word while he trusted their relationship this can hugely impact#oneā€™s sense of identity and self-worth and what youā€™re living life for. In his case itā€™s not too surprising he turned to simple#physical pleasures for comfort and enjoyment. Like with tasting good food having moments feeling good keeps you going#He always focuses on the bad relationships bring and never the good aghhhh#The reverse of Marcille who often idealizes. They both ignore problems in their relationships in opposite ways.#What do you mean why do i bring up marcille. Okay yes thisā€™ll get a marchil Fumiku short brainstorm reblog as well#Chilchuck is soā€¦ curse of having feelings and not realizing the extent of them. Underestimating how much you care#Itā€™s either ā€˜iā€™m fine who caresā€™ or falling into the pits of despair and blaming himself n spilling his whole bag no inbetween#Dunmeshi succubus#Fumi rambles#boy thatā€™s what this boils down to i suppose#Family angst ā€œHey I came back home from work and iā€™m tired so donā€™t talk to me about problems or anything k? Iā€™m here to relax smh damnā€#< unwilling to admit he has issues he should be working on or that some things are affecting others negatively#Chil you are so enneagram 6w7 <3
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apnourry Ā· 3 days ago
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hadesknockedupintheunderworld Ā· 2 months ago
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I have all of these extended thoughts on my head about the amazing way themes and character relationships are handled in Iruma-kun and the inclusion of queerness and the handling of the coming of age narrative in this shonen manga/anime
And every time all that comes out when I'm reccing it is "You should watch/read it"
Do it. Go watch/read Mairimashita! Iruma-kun/Welcome to Demon School Iruma-kun
Please.
#mairimashita! iruma kun#m!ik#welcome to demon school iruma kun#i just be ramblin#anime recommendation#manga recommendation#Like okay baseline on its surface it's an isekai anime about a teenage boy who is sold to a demon by his terrible parents and has to go to#school in the demon realm and live there without being found out (otherwise he thinks he'll be eaten)#But it's also a story about growing up and a story about a kid from a terrible situation learning what it means to (and being allowed to)#have goals and ambitions and wants#It's about a kid who gets all his needs met for the first time in his life (and a little spoiled) and figures out he wants everyone to have#that#It's about friendship and bonds and the importance of working together with others#It debunks that usual take about how humanity's base traits are evil and greed and the urge to murder and steal and whatnot through#the comparison to demonsā€š who are said to be all of those things at their core and yet in actuality aren't beholden to it#It's about outcasts coming together not letting other people determine their worth and proving just how high they can reach and what they#can accomplish. they force the world to recognize them instead of assimilating#It's about what happens to outcasts who are taken in by bad actors vs outcasts who get genuine support#It's about kindness#It's about how adults should both help the next generation improve while also being their defenders from things they shouldn't have to#handle yet#It's even about the dangers of being fully selfless or fully selfish. How personal desire/the serving of oneself and kindess/the serving of#others should be balanced#About how desire is not inherently terrible and about how being constantly self serving stunts one's growth#And it's also about a human who got sold to a demon and is gonna be the demon king one day#Thinking about this manga makes me want to chew through concrete I love it so much#*how constantly serving others stunts one's growth
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symbologic Ā· 10 months ago
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Will Zoro leave Luffy after they achieve their dreams? Not likely
Saying Zoro's gonna voluntarily leave Luffy at the end of OP so he can "live his own life" (i.e. get married, open a dojo, hang out in bars) is so wild to me. That's like saying Luffy's gonna give up adventuring so he can sit around and gorge himself on meat
First of all, it ignores that Zoro genuinely enjoys traveling with Luffy. Luffy (who's always getting into trouble) gives Zoro the chance to be his best self. And Zoro (who very much wants to be his best self) will always seize that chance with both hands
Second, both characters are like...the poster children of wanting to have their cake and eat it too. If you're Luffy or Zoro, you rarely need to make either/or choices. That's what makes them unique. It's why they've both got conqueror's haki! Basically: If Zoro wants to drink until he blacks out? If he wants to nap all day? Hell, if he wants to get lost in a paper bag?? He is like a big cat. He will do what he wants, wherever he is. He doesn't need to leave Luffy to get those things LOL
Third, Luffy's made it clear the Pirate King needs no less than the Greatest Swordsman by his side. Why would that suddenly stop once they've both achieved their dreams? Is Luffy going to quit being Pirate King? Why would he? Luffy wants to be the most free in the world, so he can live the life he wants...with the people he wants to live it with
In other words, Luffy isn't letting Zoro go without a fight ā€” not unless Luffy genuinely feels he's no longer the type of man Zoro would want to travel with. And wouldn't that be the worst ending for both of them?
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